It’s been a while…I had a rough fall. In August I cut back on a med–Abilify–which I had been taking for years for my depression. I cut it back because I had been doing so well that I thought I might not need it any more. No such luck. I spent three months dealing with fairly awful withdrawal symptoms such as irritability, insomnia, and renewed depression. During the first of those months I didn’t even realize what was going on, which made it even worse. And then when the withdrawal symptoms finally settled down, I realized I was not in an ok place without the med anyway. So I started it back up and within a week or so I was back to the happy place I had been in over the summer.
Eating disorder-wise, things have also been eventful. The binge eating disorder has become fairly quiescent. I almost never have a true binge these days. But the lowering of that tide has revealed rocky shores–I am not eating properly still and there are many issues now revealed. A tendency to enjoy not eating, and a tendency to avoid certain foods. My nutritionist now believes that my primary diagnosis is actually ARFID (Avoidant-Restrictive Food Intake Disorder). More on that in another post. At the same time, she’s identified anorexic and bulimic tendencies as well as a past history of rumination disorder. So that makes five eating disorders that I either already have or have to watch out for. Yay, I’ve got the whole set!
Now that I am feeling better again, I really want to get back to blogging pretty regularly, so hopefully you’ll see me on here more. I’ve also re-started my insta. And bought a lot of clothes. So keep your eyes open for some fun ootd pics!